Monday, May 28, 2007

My Kid Marco is Graduating

Alright. My kid Marco is graduating from High School today. Good for him. I've known him a long time. I met him when he'd just turned 4. He was Chepa's second. His brother, Italo, had just turned 7. I fell in love with her during a 30-day trip on a boat I had that we went plant collecting on for Shaman Pharmaceuticals. Just a 39-foot old fishing boat but we took it from Iquitos down to Leticia and then up the Yivari, the border between Peru and Brazil, to my friends, the Matses. We did about 3,000 or so kilometers on that thing and I fell in love and she fell in love and I asked her to marry me shortly after that. She didn't believe me, of course, because she had two children, and gringos tend to fall in love and ask about marriage a lot in Iquitos, but most of them go home full of promises and never return.
I did return. And though I'd never been a father it seemed like with her aboard it wouldn't be a hard thing. And it wasn't.
Not that it was easy: The boys had seen other boyfriends come and go. I told them it was going to be different with me, that I was going to stay and they'd better get used to it. And they did. And we moved Chepa and the boys to New York and they learned how to play basketball on the lower end of Harlem on the east side, and they learned how to play baseball and learned how cool Central Park was. And me and Marco were at it almost from the beginning. We fought a lot. That beautiful boy loved to push buttons.
And then on a trip to Lima his kidney's failed and he spent 17 days in intensive care and all that time I prayed like a true believer. And he came through and we came home to New York and I was so proud of him for fighting off death like that.
We moved back to Peru and opened our little bar, The Cold Beer Blues Bar/Cebicheria Madeleina (after our new daughter) and Marco and I continued to go at it. He'd paint my camera lenses, took apart every electronic thing he could find, wouldn't pick up after himself, wouldn't help out. And every once in a while he'd come out with "You're not my real father!" and I'd nearly explode. Because I was and am. If you cut us open the three of us, Italo, Marco and I, would have the same DNA. Don't tell me that's not possible. I've been with them too long not to know what's what.
He was always smart. Very smart. The kind of smart that Italo has in athletic ability. Just something extraordinary. If you're not quick with Italo, he'll embarrass you on the soccer field. You're not quick with Marco, you're gonna lose every argument you're in with him.
Of course, he never liked to study. And there was a point where he moved to Texas just before Italo and I did, and when I got there his teachers told me they were considering putting him in the 'slow' classes. I couldn't believe it. I suggested they test him. There were two tests: One was a statewide math test, the other an IQ.
He scored 800 on 800 on the math test--the only kid to do it in Texas that year. He scored 150-something on the IQ. The teachers were flabbergasted. I wasn't. He didn't do his work because he was bored, that's all. I asked them to challenge him, to give him problems he couldn't do, like he couldn't put watches back together once he got them apart. But just like the watches, which he eventually learned how to fix, those teachers who challenged him discovered that he would usually rise to it.
And now he's 18 and graduating today. With a decent average in some courses, and honors in others. He's still lazy and won't work if not challenged, but he's learned to play the game even when he's bored.
What will he do after this? I don't know. Whatever it is he's going to be okay. Or better than that. He's grown into a good young man. I love him enormously. He's still a pain in the neck, still challenges me every two seconds, but he's my kid and that's okay.
Congratulations, Marco. Way to go.
Dad

Memorial Day

It's Memorial Day, May 28, 2007. Take a moment to say a prayer or send a thought to all those who've died or been hurt, physically or emotionally, in all the wars man has ever fought. And to all the family members of those brave soldiers. And I do mean brave. I don't often agree with the war, but I will always respect the soldier. Throughout history they've mostly been young, strong men--and sometimes women--with less at stake than their superiors. Cannon fodder. There have been some conflicts brought about by lack of sufficient food or water. During my lifetime those have occurred all over the globe. The wars my country, the United States, has been involved in, have not had such dire necessity to explain them away: I was born during the Korean War--a conflict to keep Communism at bay. Or a conflict to keep US interests in the area alive in more than just Japan, which we'd semi-annexed following WW II. Then there was Vietnam, a war fought to keep Communism at bay--and to open up new markets for sneaker manufacturing-- at rock-bottom pay prices--as well as to gain access to the billions of new clients who might buy those sneakers. Then there was Granada--an exercise in penis strength, and the Panamanian War of Poppa Bush: a testing ground for the Stealth Bomber at best. Then Iraq 1--to protect our little oil interest in Kwuait, and Afganisthan, to root out the people we'd put in power initially, and currently the war in Iraq, to shore up oil interests.
Let's not forget the wars we don't call wars: the coups we arranged throughout Latin America in the 1970s and '80s, though we've managed a few more since then, or the skirmishes, like Somalia and elsewhere.
Each one, just of those handful, have cost good men their lives and limbs, have cost children their fathers, mothers their sons, wives their husbands. Take a moment today to appreciate their sacrifice--not necessarily because they were fighting to save anything, as they mostly were not--because most of those who died or were wounded, and all their loved ones, thought they were doing the right thing. Or were dragged into the fray against their will.
I never was in the military. I've often wondered whether I would have been a coward when the first shots rang out or if I would have had the courage to fight, even if just to save the next soldier's life. I hope I would have had courage, but I don't know.
I do know that a lot of men, good men, know the answer to that question. And a lot of men, good men, have paid a lot to find that answer out.
And while the bigger question of WHY might be visible to a lot of us and not make sense, to those who were in the thick of it, to those who were fighting to save their friends, the WHY doesn't matter. The WHAT does. And the WHAT is that they were courageous.
And for that, I thank them.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Off Again

Okay, I'm off again, back to Peru. Back to my second home, Iquitos, and my real love: The Amazon River and it's wonderful jungle. I'm taking guests out again and if I had my druthers I'd be--again--doing some real exploring of physical spaces, rather than real exploring of emotional places. But that's my job: getting people out into the thick of things, the thick of thick things where they are so open-mouthed they can forget their names, their day to day lives and let Spirit come fill them up. Or as my Madeleina says, "you know, get them to forget everything about themselves so they sort of die and then the Ayahuasca, well, not the Ayahuasca but the Spirit of Ayahuasca and Sapo and Nu-Nu and that cactus one [San Pedro] can help them to be born again. Only this time they'll be born better people."
I think she's about got it.
And I like doing that for people. And I love my team down there. Someone yesterday refered to them as "your peasants"--meaning to insult me for the way I lord it over them, rather than insulting them--and I almost howled in laughter. As anyone who has ever been with me knows, the team is the boss. I'm the guy who doles out the money but I'm far from the boss. We're a genuine team and I'm proud to be part of it. They work hard, they keep an eye on me, they love working with my guests and I think they even like me. Heck, they're all my old and now deceased teacher Julio's family, and some of them weren't even born when I first met their grandpa, the great and humble curandero Julio Jerena.
I thought I'd be able to bring my kids on this trip. I thought even Chepa and her new baby--forget her boyfriend, he was never included, okay?--Sierra would be able to come. I'd been asked last year to run a trip in April for 15, another in May for 16-17, then this one in June for 12 and then a short one in July for 8-10. If they all came together I thought I'd finally earn a good chunk and be able to take everyone home to Iquitos, Peru for a month.
Unfortunately, the April lady got no one and the May organizer got half-a-dozen people just for the Cuzco/Machu Picchu portion of the trip. I guess it's tough trying to get people to part with several thousand bucks to take a trip. In any event, I lost both those trips (though I did a short April one with half-a-dozen great folks) and so now there's no money to take the family. So I'm gonna be missing them again and I'm going to have some nights when I really wish I was home, making them dinner, watching a movie with them, or just cooking a bar-be-que like I've mentioned in a dispatch earlier this month.
Still, I'm lucky to have the work and lucky to be a journalist able to leave town on trips like this, trips that wear me out but refresh my soul as much as they refresh the souls of my guests.
And I hope I don't let them down. Hope I don't drink too much one night (or 10) and having them wishing I'd just die or go away. Hope the medicine does the magic it generally does; hope that Julio is watching over his son Hairo and I cooking the medicine and nods in approval, then blows a little black-tobacco mapacho smoke from wherever he is right now to the center of the great big pot, giving it just a little taste of his wisdom, decency, generousity and razzle-dazzle.
And of course I hope that whatever it is my guests need--not necessarily what they want or think they need, but whatever it is their souls really really need--they get and get in spades. Man, that's a good feeling when that happens. And it happens, surprisingly, quite a bit.
And while I'm gone I hope nothing bad happens here. I hope everybody in the world, but especially my kids and Chepa and Sierra (okay, we can add the boyfriend here) and Italo's girl Sarah are all great while I'm gone. Not like our little dog Lily who just last night was playing on the front porch and today is a pile of broken bones and mashed flesh out in the street in front of our house. So smashed she's not even bury-able. Sorry, Lily. I hope you enjoyed your sojurn here on planet earth. And with Italo and Marco now driving I get nervous, you know? There are a lot of bad/crazy/drunk drivers out there. So keep an eye open at all times, guys. Don't let anything happen to you or your sisters or your mom. Ah, jjjjjuuuuuuu. Ah, jjjuuuuu.
Hey, I'm a dad, I'm allowed to feel this stuff, right?
Anyway, I'm nearly packed but not nearly ready to go. I'm in the middle of two big investigations that I havn't been able to wrap up yet, the lawn needs mowing, the oil needs changing on both old trucks and a hundred other things need doing as well. Guess I'll have to let them wait. Time to go.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

The Jimmy Carter Legacy

William Murcheson, in a column that appeared on the Creators.com syndicate, reviles Jimmy Carter for saying that George Bush is the worst president for foreign affairs ever. Murchison claims that Carter, with his sense of morality, reduced the presidency to a moral arbitor and says that's not the job.
I disagreed and wrote this response to the mentally defective Murchison. If I offend anyone, too freaking bad. History is history. It cannot be rewritten.
Bill M:
Sorry but you are way off base. Carter was so admittedly human and flawed that he put the average compulsive-crime-confessor to shame. His decency, in light of the criminality of the preceeding Nixon (Ford was okay) and following Reagan and Bush administrations was exemplary. But never with a sense of morality that you suggest. He was a worker bee, not too smart, not hep to international policits, but a decent man, and we needed one to clean our hands of the Nixon debacle.
Since his presidency, he's been an exemplary human, hard working, not cashing on his cache as a former president as others have--not that he hasn't made a living, but he has lived by the morals he suggested and they were the basic morals of decency, nothing more.
His calling out the utter incompetency or Bush/Cheney--with a combined IQ of perhaps 140 and a sense of morality that would make a bitch in heat blush--is the only decent thing a decent man could do. We are living under would-be-dictators, as you well know. Perhaps you are in the circle that wouldn't be crucified. The rest of us are not living in such lofty air. We loved Carter, despite his flaws as president due to a lack of understanding that the world is crooked and corrupt, a definite flaw in playing power games with other sociopaths who run countries as dictators or ayatollahs--precisely because when asked if he'd ever cheated on his wife he had the nuts/balls to answer: I have lusted in my heart, but not on the physical plane...paraphrasing, but such an honest answer--one that would surely get him thrown out of his wife's bed and not laid for months--that it was stunning and admirable.
IF that comment alone was his legacy he produced more than Reagan, Bush and Baby burning Bush combined.
So please get with it. Understand that a leader of the free world is precisely a moral arbiter. Nothing more or less. And Jimmy C was the only moral leader we've had since Eisenhower. Which makes him a good, not worst, president. Apologies accepted for your completely embarrassing column.
Peter Gorman
Reporter,
Texas

Young Men and Trouble

Ah, youth. I'm so glad it's gone in some ways and so miss it in others.
I got up for a 3 AM trip to the john and see the light in my son Italo's room on, so I peeked in. He was sitting on his bed, eyes wide. His girl, who lives with us, was nowhere in sight. I asked why he wasn't sleeping and he answered tensely that he wasn't sleepy.
I asked again, got the same answer and went back to bed on the couch in my office where I sleep. At some point I woke to see Sarah coming in--the front door of the house is in the office--and the next time I woke it was 5:30 and Chepa was coming in with Sierra, her new baby, and Madeleina, our 10-year old. Chepa drops off the kids, makes a fruit juice and lunch for herself and leaves for work.
Ten minutes later in comes Italo. I asked where he'd been; turns out he was upset with Sarah for being out with her girlfriends so late that he didn't sleep with her but went instead to Chepa's. (Okay, so the family is a little crazy like that, with the kids having two houses, Chepa's and mine, and running between the two of them.)
Anyway, he sits on the couch in the office where Madeleina and Sierra were sleeping, waking them both. And I'm making coffee. And I know he wants to talk but he was making me wait. I asked what was wrong and he said nothing. About three times over 15 minutes, while the girls ran around. So we were more or less having a 6 AM party in the office and finally Italo talks.
Turns out that he went to his first strip club last night with his cousin Renz and a couple of friends. Five buck admission, two beers each.
He said there was a guy at a nearby table who kept having girls come over to him and dance for him--I explained what lap dances and $20 bills were--and he said that at first the guy was cool. He was laughing and making jokes with my son and his pals.
Later, when his table was leaving, the guy left as well. Italo said that the two cars he and Renz and the others came in happened to be parked right next to the guy's car and the guy left when they did so they all basically wound up walking through the parking lot together.
But he said the guy--he described him as a huge, cut guy with lots of arm tatoos--went from being friendly to leaning over Renz and asking him if he had all the money. Renz said no and moved away. Then Italo said they guy moved over and leaned over him--Italo is a brilliant athlete and strong as a snake but only 5 foot 8 or so and maybe 145 pounds. No fat, just several hours a day of semi-pro soccer. Anyway, the guy leaned over and asked him if he had all the money. He says he joked that they spent all their money in the club.
Then he says the guy blind-sided him with a punch to his ribs (I think he might have cracked one or two). Italo said it came out of nowhere and he responded with a lashed out punch to the guy's face. "The guy went down dad. I mean like he was out."
The guy got up in a few seconds--during which Italo's crowd got into their cars to go--and came after Italo. Italo says he hit him again, the guy went down again, and this time Italo got into the car and he and Renz and friends left by the time the guy got up and started chasing them, this time with a knife in his hand.
Anyway, so Italo's got this busted hand, maybe busted ribs and he's pissed off at his girl.
It's only the second fight I've known him to be in, and the first was protecting a friend. I'm real pround that he knows how to handle himself. I'm glad he's got the reflexes of a pro athlete and the quickness of a cat.
I'm glad he didn't get hurt worse than he did.
I remember being that age. I remember being blindsided by people you were talking with on Manhattan streets. Sometimes it came out of nowhere. It seems to me that phase of living didn't pass till I was about 30. Long time to have to have the eyes in the back of your head open.
I'm glad he's okay. I'll feel better when he and Marco reach 30 or so.
And I hope he doesn't go back to that joint and run into that guy again.

Monday, May 21, 2007

Completely Self-Absorbed

Okay, I've lots to tell. I've been home two weeks and leave in a few days for another several weeks in Peru. I've got a great group joining me, plus two pals--former clients who have become friends--so I'm sitting pretty. Unfortunately, there's a money glitch--I'm still waiting on 40% of the trip funds collected by the agency but not yet sent to me. I'm hoping it arrives soon but time is running out. Otherwise I'm going to have a lot of unhappy campers when I explain that I've booked all their hotels, paid for ceremonies, sent two tons of material up the river but have no money for their food, to pay my staff, for all the treats and day trips we do and so forth. So I'm sort of pre-occupied worrying about that.
I'm also worried about leaving my kids for six weeks: I've never done that. I've been gone 5 weeks, 4 weeks, but never 6. That's a long time. I know. My dad was a Broadway actor and when he'd get a national tour it was often 6 or 9 months. It kept a distance between us that none of us liked. But he was just gone 3,6, 9 months every year and so missed everything.
This time I'm missing Marco's high school graduation; Madeleina's awards for the 4th grade; Sierra's first words in English and Spanish (she's been talking baby talk for months and is thisclose to breaking out in non-nonsense syllables, though no one who has ever been a parent should call them that: The kids know what they're saying. The problem is that us grownups don't know that language...)
Okay. So that's one reason, or six, to be self-absorbed. But there is also a good reason: The Houston Press Club--the people who hand out awards for Texas writers, journalists, radio and television people--just made me a finalist for Journalist of the year for my 2006 work here: I'm proud of that.
Madeleina's been dancing around since we got the news. I've tried to tell her we're already winners just being one of three finalists, but she's not hearing it: She wants to win.
Funny, I don't remember teaching her that winning is the only thing. I'm an old hippie, after all, and to me successful sharing is winning.
Anyway, apart from me being intoxicated with my life--and I ask your forgiveness with that, I think it's mostly because I'm dog dog tired--I've begun the process of putting up about 35 new pieces on the petergormanarchive.com. The pieces are the beginning of the Drug War Stories I've written over the last 20 years as well as my first 18 columns for Skunk Magazine. The column is called Drug War Follies and it's the first time in my life I've had one. I try to deliver pretty good material because I really don't want to lose the gig. I love having a column. I love writing what I freaking want.
And I loved the way Skunk got in touch with me: Two years ago or so I got a call from a guy who sounded more Bensonhurst, Brooklyn than most mafia guys I worked with at the Feast of San Gennaro in Little Italy, New York. And he says: "Hello. I'm the publisher of the new magazine called Skunk. It's a dope magazizne and we're hoping to have a lot of attitude, like High TImes did 30 years ago. Now I don't know who the fuck you are and I don't care. But my two partners say we have to have you writing for us. I never heard of you. So I'm going along with them. What do you want to write?"
I told him I wanted a column and I wanted a free hand and I wanted a thousand dollars a column.
Guy came back at me like I'd just put three in the back of his mother's head.
"You're shitting me. I wouldn't give you a thousand dollars a column if you were threatening my children. Get the ...."
Ok, I asked, how much?
"Ill give you four hundred for eight columns a year. Best I can do unless you give me a couple of your kids to put on my barbeque so I can save money on meat now and then."
I had to love that guy. What a great publisher.
So I wrote a column and I wrote 20 more and I hope they lend insight to the War on Drugs both here in the US and Canada and Mexico as well as in South America.
Anyway. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.
I'm having a pretty good moment, I guess.
Thanks for bearing with me. I appreciate it.
Peter G

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Falling in Love with My Wife's New Baby

Ah, heck. Maybe because it's Mother's Day. Maybe it's because I'm making a roast beef and pepperjack sandwich for myself, rather than cooking for my family. Maybe it's because I've been away three weeks, just got back and leave in two weeks for nearly two months.
Whatever it is, today has been harder than I would have thought. My son Italo and his girl Sarah, who lives here, left early for a soccer game. My son Marco slept at mom's, up the road two miles or so, last night. Madeleina, my 10-year-old, is finishing a sleep-over with a girlfriend that she left for yesterday afternoon. My wife/ex-wife, Chepa, her boyfriend came into town for mother's day, so we cancelled the reservations we had so she could get a little love. And with her she took her new baby--his too--Sierra, for a day with my ex-in laws.
So maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself that nobody called to wish me a happy mother's day--since I've been a single father for 10 years now. Or maybe it's the beer, though I didn't have many at the bar. But mostly what I'm feeling is that I want to tell little Sierra that I love her. I've been raising her since she was born, since the boyfriend/father left town after Chepa got pregnant. Sierra isn't mine, biologically. But then neither are most of my other kids. But I've been raising them since they were weaned and if you cut us open I believe you'd find the same DNA after all these years.
But this new baby, she's definitely not mine. Still, despite me telling her to call me Pe-Ter, calls me Pe-Ter, daddy. ANd I don't allow that. But today, for instance, she came with Chepa at 5 AM and I was still sleeping and I woke up to find this 17 month old baby crawling onto the couch and behind my legs saying: "Pe-Ter, Daddy. Ahhhhhhh."
And the problem is that I've fallen in love with her, against my wishes. Her real dad will sort his issues out--nothing bad, just child support from his last marriage--and then he and Chepa will find a place to live and then I'll be forgotten and they'll be the family they should be. But that hasn't happened for the first 17 months. There have been visits and so forth, but mostly I change diapers, I make milk, I take her to museums and teach her the difference between edible leaves and non-edible leaves. And every day she needs to go over the 17 skulls I have on the shelf, noting the differences--her fingers fit into the eyes of some animals, and into the nose of others--and sniff the holy orange water to blow it on me so that I'm sopla'd--just as I do her. And she sucks down a few drops of my coffee while sitting on my lap at the computer and begs for a hit off the cigarette I've always got lit and repeats "hmmmm" when I can't figure something out, and changes the computer screen in frustration when she misses something, just like me.
So the problem is that I've fallen love with my wife's new baby and she's not mine. And that's already breaking my heart. Because she'll leave to be with her real dad someday soon. And all I'm allowed to do is hope it's sooner rather than later.
But that doesn't mean it's not killing me inside, okay? So even this tough guy, this New York tough guy, this guy who's run into a gun battle unarmed-once--another story--and been bitten by a bushmaster and a brown recluse and a caiman and vampire bats--even this tough guy is soft for kids. And especially my wife's kids, which include mine and some that are not mine.
And I don't like the thought that I'm gonna lose her soon. And I'd like to think she'd be better off with me. But that's just meloncholy. Truth is, she ought to be with her father, whether I think he's the cat's meow or now. And the heck with me, I'm just a substitute till the real thing comes along.
But it sure can louse up a mother's day, eh?

Saturday, May 12, 2007

A Recent Column of Mine in Skunk Magazine

In an occasional effort to remind people that I'm a drug war journalist first, I'm going to periodically drop material into this blog from the drug war that I think is worth reading. One of my regular gigs is writing a column for Skunk Magazine out of Montreal. It's called Drug War Follies and it appears in each issue. The mag is for pot smokers, so buy it if you are one; don't bother if that's not your thing. But it's pretty well done, has some hilarious attitude and is fun to work for the gang up there.
This column appeared in the issue that just went off the newsstand. A new column is due today and needless to say, I'm avoiding it by doing things like this. Enjoy.


DRUG WAR FOLLIES

Good News/Bad News: Couple of Whiffs of Fresh Air but It Mostly Still Stinks Like Shit Around Here

By Peter Gorman


Okay, gang. I don’t want any interruptions while you’re reading this time, so get your bongs filled, roll your joints, find the damned matches….that’s it, take a deep breath…hold it now…hold it now...wheeeewwww! Okay. Set? Then let’s get started.
The last several weeks have been a mix of good stuff and bad shit with regards to the War on Drugs, but I am going to start with one of the good ones today: Mr. Tyrone Dwayne Brown was conditionally pardoned by Texas Governor Rick Perry, and freed on March 15 from the Texas prison system that’s been his home for 17 years.
Brown’s case is one of the strangest in the strange fucking history of the US WoD. Known on the street as T-Baby, Brown was a hell-raiser and a thug as a young teen in the late 1980s. He was regularly sent to special schools and juvenile centers for car-theft and a host of other crimes. Typical story: impoverished upbringing, abused as a child, same as the rest of us. But at 17, in 1990, Brown was busted for aggravated robbery. No one got hurt and Brown and his pals made off with all of $2. He got 10 years deferred-sentencing for that, and one of the conditions of his probation was peeing in a cup. Two months into the program he came up dirty for pot and had his probation revoked. And then, unbelievably, at his hearing for the probation violation the judge sentenced him to aggravated-life in prison, with no chance of parole. Brown may well be the only guy in the whole country sentenced to life for failing a urine test.
So he’s been rotting in some of the worst prisons in Texas since then. Activists and journalists have been pushing for his release almost since the day he was sentenced, and the noise finally reached the governor’s ears in late 2006, when 20/20 ran a segment on him.
So now he’s 34-years-old and out, and if he can live up to the conditions of the pardon—which include living with his mother, reporting to a parole officer for the rest of his life, going to counseling and peeing in a cup till he’s 106, he’ll get to stay out. He hasn’t got a prayer of course, so he’ll be back in shortly—though I’m praying for him to make it. And you should too, you worthless humpbacked couch potatoes. So start praying.
Brown is out and that’s a good thing. The bad thing is that the judge in Brown’s case is not being sentenced to jail. On the other hand, I suspect that man Is going to find out what karma means one of these days. Life for a pot-pee-positive? Mother fucker! Makes your skin crawl, doesn’t it? Everybody sing: Oh the la-and of the free….and the home of the scum-sucking, bottom-feeding drug warriors.
Good luck, Mr. Tyrone Brown. Stay strong.
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A second piece of good luck was brought to us in the lower-48 recently, courtesy of the Utah Supreme Court. On March 9 the court ruled that the smell of marijuana alone did not justify a warrantless search of a trailer by police—the first time in a long time that a court has upheld the US Constitution’s 4th Amendment guaranteeing the right to privacy in one’s home.
The story began in 2003 in a Utah trailer park. A woman and two men were in the trailer of a friend—who was not home—smoking weed. The friend’s mother, on whose land the trailer sat, and the friend’s brother—a little snitch who should be whipped—called the cops to tell them that people were smoking dope in the trailer. The cops came and later claimed they could smell pot "leakin’ out of the cracks of the trailer."
Instead of getting a search warrant, the police decided that the occupants were "in the very process of smokin’ up the evidence," and burst into the trailer, where they found a woman, Ms. Bernadette Duran, and two men, getting high. All were arrested despite Duran admitting the pot was hers.
At her trial, Duran’s lawyer argued that the evidence—the pot—should be suppressed because the police had no right to enter the trailer without a warrant. The police stood by the notion that since the evidence was being smoked they had no time to get a warrant. Duran was convicted, but an appeals court tossed it. The state appealed to the Supreme Court of Utah, which upheld the court of appeals’ decision.
In the 4-1 majority decision, the Court ruled that while there are some circumstances which permit police to enter a home without a warrant—if they know the people inside have been alerted to their presence and are actively trying to destroy evidence, for instance, "the detectable odor of burning marijuana" is not one of them. "The aroma of burning marijuana must be accompanied by some evidence that the suspects are disposing of the evidence as opposed to casually consuming it" the court wrote, because, "[S]moking marijuana involves as its incidental but inevitable consequence the destruction of evidence."
There are a couple of lessons to be learned from the case. First, burn as much evidence as possible. Secondly, pick your friends well but pick their mothers even more carefully.
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While the Utah Supremes were giving one to the people, the US Supreme Court was busy hearing a case colloquially known as "Bong Hits 4 Jesus." This case started in January, 2002, when then-high-school-senior Joseph Frederick unfurled a 14-foot paper sign reading Bong Hits 4 Jesus on the sidewalk in front of his school in Juneau, Alaska while the Olympic torch relay was being carried past the school on the way to the Salt Lake City, Utah, Winter Games.
Frederick’s principal, an outraged Deborah Morse, confiscated the sign and suspended him. Frederick filed suit against her over the suspension, claiming his right to free speech had been violated. Her lawyers argued that the sign—shown during a school-sponsored event of watching the Olympic relay—violated the school’s policy on promoting illegal drug use.
Frederick initially lost his suit but appealed it and a San Francisco federal appeals court agreed with him, overturning the lower court’s decision. Principal Morse appealed, bringing it to the High Court.
Oral arguments in the case were said to be quite lively with lawyers for Principal Morse arguing that the sign "disrupted the educational mission of the school" and Justice David Souter saying he didn’t see what the sign disrupted, "unless disruption simply means any statement of disagreement with a position officially adopted by the school."
Even court rookie and ultra-conservative Justice Samuel Alito got into the act saying that he found it disturbing to think that "schools…can define their educational mission so broadly that they can suppress all sorts of political speech…under the banner of getting rid of speech that’s inconsistent with educational missions."
Almost sounds as if the court might rule in favor of free speech.
A decision is expected by June, and by golly I’ll let you know what it is.
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It wasn’t all fun and games in the War on Drugs, though. Former New York Mayor Rudy Giuliani picked up steam in his bid to become the republican presidential candidate in 2008, but those of us who remember him as our mayor remember this as a major part of his legacy: In the year before he took office as mayor, there were 720 marijuana possession busts in all of New York City. During his eight years in office there were more than 200,000 marijuana arrests, and in his last year alone there were more than 60,000. Just in case all you know about him is how strong he looked after 9/11. Oh, and during the aftermath of 9/11, after Mike Bloomberg had been elected to succeed him, Giuliani publicly suggested that he continue as mayor—rather than turning over the reins—to help New York and the US get through the 9/11 crisis. Oh, yeah, we need another king like Tiffany Towers needs more breast augmentation.
And dirty cops abounded, as usual. New Haven, Connecticut’s number one drug cop, Lt. William White, was arrested and charged with stealing after an FBI surveillance tape caught him putting $27,000 of the department’s money into his personal car. In Houston, Texas, a department of public safety employee was arrested on charges he lifted more than 25 kilos of cocaine from a crime lab over a period of several years. Michael Carlos Gonzales, a former Border Patrol Agent, was found guilty in a federal court in early March of stealing 25 kilos of Mexican brick marijuana that was in a truck that another agent had stopped. While the other agent and Gonzales’ partner ran after the smugglers in the southern Texas desert, Gonzales was caught on videotape quickly putting the pot in the back of his own car and rearranging the remaining bricks so that the other two officers wouldn’t realize some were missing.
So it’s been a better month for us than most, but it still smells like a toilet around here.

It would all be funny if people weren’t dying and the prisons weren’t full.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

There Are Some Magic Moments

Whenever I leave Texas for Peru I've got both an excitement and sadness running through my heart. I'm excited because I love Peru, I love my team down there, I love the jungle and I know there will be new things for me, even if I havn't been able to do any real exploring in some years now. I'm sad because I've got to leave my kids and hate doing that.
One of the new things for me this trip occurred just before I left for Iquitos. Maybe a week prior to my flight I got a call from a friend--the man who does my paperwork down there, from marriage licences to owning boats (both past events)--who said that a mutual friend was in jail and about to be sentenced to 25 years for something he hadn't done and could I help out. Helping out turned out to be buying some land he had so that he could pay for a lawyer to get a genuine hearing in front of the sentencing judge to explain the situation.
The situation was that he'd begun a relationship with a 14-year-old girl five years ago. She wasn't visually 14: She already had two children and had been married once, so it might not be my cup of tea but it wasn't anything bizarre either. He'd lived with the girl and her children--along with her mom and other family members--supporting them all, for four years. Then he and the by-then-18-year-old woman broke up. So her mom, angry at losing the household support, denounced him to the police as a child molester for having had sex with her daughter when she wasn't yet 15, the age of consent in Peru.
By the time I found out he was in jail he'd been there a full year. So of course I bought the land and he got his hearing and the judge sentenced him to finishing a second year in jail rather than to the standard 25 years.
But I had no idea what I'd bought. It was just something to help out a friend. And of course, since I bought it I thought I should put something on it so I had some of my work team build a standard, raised-platform, wall-less hut and a kitchen and hoped for the best.
And then on this last trip, when we'd finished with a week in the deep jungle about 212 kilometers upriver from Iquitos, I headed out to see the new property. And oh what a treat! It turns out I bought 24 hectares (about 50 acres) of mostly primary first-growth rainforest about 30 minutes outside of Iquitos. Towering moena, catawa and lupuna trees, 60 foot aguaje and i-san palms, fern flooring. A 20 foot wide river filled with caiman and fish, two streams...wow! And the houses were tucked way in the back between one of the streams and the small river. My guys had dug out the stream so that it will hold water even in dry season and turned a section of it into a 20 by 40 foot swimming hole that neck high when full. Three bands of monkeys passed during the first two hours there; nutria, never having seen men, played in the river next to two sunning caiman. Parrots and blue morpho butterflies darted among the treetops overhead.
I sat there overwhelmed. What a gift! I talked silently to my Madeleina telling her I'd finally gotten her a real swimming pool and wishing my boys were there with me.
We did ceremony there a couple of days later and it was magic.
I don't know what I will do with the place as I don't live in Iquitos and have no plans to open a retreat. I'm hoping my team will use it to bring an occasional tourist or as a wonderful place to make a barbeque on weekends with their families, just so that it gets used a bit rather than just quickly falling into rot.
In any event, that was one of the new and surprising things that happened this time and it was swell.
Of course the sadness builds in me and when a trip is done I hurry to get my equipment cleaned and stored and head home.
And at home things are never quite what you expect: there's always been a car breakdown or a fence section fell or my kids forgot to cut the yard or something on that order.
This time it was a tree that fell in a bad storm, killing a new riding lawnmower. But that was really nothing.
And then last night, my second home, things got about as perfect as they can get in my book. My boy Italo and his live-in girlfriend Sarah, were off from work and we decided to make a barbeque. We were babysitting my wife Chepa's new baby Sierra, a dream of a 15-month old. Italo was cutting the tree into pieces, I was push-mowing the lawn, Sarah and Madeleina and Sierra were playing with the goats, hand feeding them leaves from tree branches they can't reach. Coals were getting hot. Chepa came and decided to do the cooking. The grass was green. The air was cool. The smell of the chicken and veggies on the grill began to fill the air. My son Marco came home. Everybody was having a good time. It was almost as if we weren't a sort of broken up family at all. And I loved it. And it lasted hours. There are some magic moments in this crazy life, aren't there?

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Just Back in Town

Just got back into town, still jet lagged and emotionally exhausted from three weeks in Amazonia, two of which included having guests to take out to the jungle. The guests were fantastic--they often are--but there is still an emotional price to pay from trying to pay attention to them. Not in what they physically say, but in what they often don't say: My job, as I see it, is to give them the opportunity to change their lives. That's what most of them come to the Amazon for. They might say it's just a vacation, or that they love exotic travel or want to try the mystical visionary tea Ayahuasca, or the Matses' Indian's sapo or nu-nu--and that's probably what they believe. But on a deeper level, by the time they're actually ready and willing to travel to deep jungle with a perfect stranger to participate in those ceremonies, they really are ready to change their lives. Don't read me wrong. I don't do the life changing. I'm not capable of that. But I do have to try to put them in a place so secure that they can either do the changing or let it happen. And that that place will be one of the exotic and frightening places of our childhood dreams--a place filled with poisonous snakes, wild people, impenetrable jungle, jaguars and a host of other potentially dangerous things--well, that takes an extra measure of security to make that sort of place comfortable enough to allow for change.
And there is a lot of change: Over the years the trip has been the catalyst for marriages and divorces, for starting new businesses, for moving to the third world, for returning to university or quitting it and so forth. And I love that I can be part of that. I'm so freaking lucky that way. Just to be able to put people on an overcrowded flat-bottomed riverboat for an overnight ride to the middle of the middle of things in the Amazon is a marvelous thing to do. On the other hand, to make sure no one falls off the boat requires a certain awareness on the part of me and my team. And that constant awareness over a couple of weeks is what's emotionally rewarding in the long run but emotionally draining in the short term.
So I'm back and to those of you who have visited this space for a few weeks without seeing an entry, I apologize. I was preoccupied. But I hope to have a story or two to tell in the next couple of weeks before I head out again for a June trip.
So come back and take a peek now and then. I'll try to find some interesting things to relate.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

19 Hours to Take Off

It's 4 PM, Texas time. I've got a plane to catch at 11 AM tomorrow morning that'll get me to Miami in time for the Lima, Peru flight at 5:35. Then it's sitting in the airport from midnight till 5:45 AM for the flight to Iquitos. I'll be there, in the biggest city in the western Amazon before 8 and back in my old hotel room at the Hotel Isabel before breakfast.
I'm headed out to take a small group into the deep jungle for a little while. We'll do overnight riverboats packed tighter than a Mexican bus, night canoeing on a river where there is an occasional 15 foot anaconda and more frequent, though smaller, caiman. There will be hiking in primary jungle, swinging from 80 foot vines, having the Matses blow snuff (nu-nu) up our noses and burning our arms to apply frog-sweat medicine into our subcutaneous skin layers. We'll eat piranha and wild boar or anything else the locals try to sell us because you've got to contribute to the local economy even if you don't particularly lust after wild boar. There might even be a large grub worm or two (suri) or termites we can fry up. And there will be breadfruit and wild purple potatoes, and plantains and yucca we might dig up. There will certainly be some yerba louisa (lemon-lime) and mandarin orange tea we'll make after collecting the herbs and leaves.
And then there will be medicine. Ayahuasca the way it's been done for a long time down in that part of the world. Good medicine that's helped those people stay alive and strong for thousands of years.
So there will be medicine and magic and I'll bet by now my guests, who will join me on Saturday morning, the 21 of April, are beginning to get just a little jittery now that the time is close. I wonder if they're wondering what the hell they've signed up for. Except for one, none of them know me. Yet they somehow trust that I can take them 200 hundred-plus kilometers, 17 hours, up river from Iquitos, put them into this genuine Amazon jungle movie, have them canoeing with crocs and eating grub worms and then get them back in one piece. But by now they're probably wondering if that trust is well-placed or utterly misguided. A couple of them might be heaving by the time it's time to board their planes.
Me? I've been sick for a week. I always get sick before a trip. I have endless things to tie up, from duping tapes someone ordered to getting my kids' tux-for-the-prom rented to doing the lawn, getting the garbage to the dump, finishing two stories for my regular and wonderful gig, not to mention redoing the medical kit (I pray we don't need it but I still have to bring it), packing and sorting out the funds for everything.
And then there is the real reason I get sick: I hate leaving the kids. The older boys are okay, but Madeleina, I think, still feels abandoned when I go. She acts out, I act out. You can explain all you want to kids, that I need time away from writing to refresh my spirit, that I need the extra income to take care of things here at home, but she still feels like I'm leaving her and there is a little part of her that knows there's a chance, not a big chance, but a chance, that I might not come home. Or that when I do it will be like last year, with seeping holes from a flesh eating spider bite that got septic and ugly. Or like the year before that when I broke two teeth on shotgun pellets in a piece of rodent and came home with a different smile that's yet to be fixed.
And I know she wonders what I'll do if I fall in love with someone there.
I know what I'd do. I'd still come home when I said I would because the kids are my real love. But she's just a kid and she doesn't believe that all the way.
And so I've been working my ass off and being sick and feeling like I'm doing something wrong by going away again, even if it's just a few weeks this time. And it's going to get worse tonight, and even worse tomorrow morning when I take her to school and tell her I love her and will see her in a few weeks. She'll be angry, I know, because she always is. She'll tell me not to bother to come back. Inside she'll be crying and lonesome and outside she'll be a defiant little girl who doesn't need her dad after all.
And I'll be crying on the outside and the inside.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

They Stone You When You Trying To Be So Good...

I am gonna be the last person in the world to complain. I've got my health, a strong body, a good mind, three healthy kids, two Ford Rangers--1994 with 275,000 miles and a 1998 with 110,000 miles--that are paid off and run like new, more work than I can do, a house that leaks but not too much, three dogs, two goats, a cat, lots of birds, a girl who lives with my oldest son in my house; an ex I'm getting along with; her new baby who calls me Pe-Ter and spends three or four days with me weekly, and I'm headed down to the Amazon for a three week trip in five days that people are paying me to lead.
So I'm not going to complain.
Three years ago I felt the same except that I had no work. So I was behind. I was borrowing all I could. I've already written about those hard times in an earlier post. This time I'm saying I've paid the Television a couple of months in advance, paid the phone two months, the water three months, the car insurance for everyone two months, the electric and phone two months and the mortgage isn't due for another three weeks.
And I've still got a thousand bucks in the bank.
It's not a lot, I know. But it's more than I've had in a long time, and so I'm sitting pretty and the family is eating good. Tonight I'm making shrimp and baked chicken thighs (not together, just two different things), steamed broccoli, salad and Basmati rice with garlic.
That's living large, folks, so forgive me for feeling good. When a dad can't provide he feels like garbage; when he can he feels like he earned his sleep at night. He'll still wake up three or four times to check that everyone is okay and that there's no problem outside the house, but he'll have good dreams.
And I appreciate that more than is possible to explain.
Being poor, really poor, for a while has reminded me of how it was for me years ago, before the good times. So I had to do a full cycle and come back to desperation despite the hardest work possible to remember the keys to survival: Work, keep working, don't feel sorry for yourself, make another phone call, eat your ego and do what needs doing and pray a lot for help from powers you don't even necessarily believe in.
The kids are the thing, right? You and me can live in a swamp and be happy. That's not the issue. The issue is that the kids can go to the doctor when they need to, can have a good birthday and a decent Christmas. Have some good used clothes to wear, and a pair of shoes that don't hurt their feet. And maybe a dental visit every two or three years. Not too much, but enough.
All that said, even when things are good, the angels are reminding me not to get cocky. That's what reminded me of Dylan's ageless song, Rainy Day Women #12 and 35, from which this piece got its title.
Cause now that I've got bills paid, now that I've got three magazines oweing me for stories I've already written and a trip to Peru next week that might net me another grand, even after all my expenses, in other words, now that I'm a freaking pig with shrimp on the stove, today the lawnmower belt broke on one mower, then the blade broke on the other. Then my ex's car broke down when a hose burst and the engine overheated, tossing a rod. Then the little roof leak dropped a 4 X 6 foot section of ceiling down on the computer. And the puppy needed a parvo shot. And then I gritted my teeth and broke a crown.
So there goes more money than I have.
So it's a good reminder that you shouldn't get cocky.
Cause even when you're working hard and thinking things are going good, the ceiling might fall on your head.
And it did.
Just another wake up call from the angels.
Time to go fix at least one of the lawn mowers.
"They'll stone you when you're trying to be so good. They'll stone you just like they said they would. They'll stone you when you are young and able. They'll stone you when you're sitting at the table. But I would not be so all alone....everybody must get stoned...."
Thanks Mr. Dylan.

Monday, April 09, 2007

My Daughter Is 10 Today

April 9, 2007, and my daughter Madeleina turned 10 today. Or, as she put it, "I'm double-digits, dad."
Anyone who has ever been a father or mother will attest that the time flies. I mean flies. It wasn't two weeks ago--it seems--that I was downstairs from our 90th street and 3rd Ave apartment in New York City, having a drink with a friend at Richters at about 11 PM when Chepa called on the house phone to say her water broke and I should get her to the hospital, quickly.
I raced upstairs while pals at the joint hailed and held a cab, got Chepa downstairs and we were off to Lenox Hill Hospital.
Inside we went to Maternity and she was given a bed. Someone called her doctor.
The room was not well lit, just a sort of waiting room. Chepa was having contractions but they were a ways apart. I thought she might be hungry so excused myself and went to the corner and got her a couple of cheeseburgers. When I got back, probably 10 minutes, you could just see the crown of our baby's head beginning to make it's move.
The doc arrived and we waited as the contractions got closer. By about 2 AM it was push time and by about 2:15 or so she started to emerge. The doc told me to reach down there and pull her out. I said not a chance. He said he was drunk and was in no shape to do it. (I think he was just lying to force me to get my hands dirty.) So I did it. I got her out a very little at a time because I didn't want to pull anything too hard. And as she came out I expected her to be looking at the floor: To my surprise she was looking straight up at me. Halfway out and her eyes were open and looking right at me, through me, and she said, as clearly as if you said it to me today: "hep...hep...hep..." and I swear I know she was trying to say "Help. Help. Help."
And I started to cry because I knew what she wanted. She wanted to go back inside. Wanted to say she'd made a mistake in deciding to leave spirit and take on flesh for a lifetime. And now that she felt her first air, felt her first human contact, saw those bright cold lights and heard us talking she wanted no part of it. But it was too late, of course. So I just cried and told her I was sorry but that we'd try to make it a pretty good life for her.
And then we got her all the way out and the doctor took her and the nurse handed me scissors and I cut the cord and Chepa was crying/laughing on the bed and I was told to let Chepa kiss her for a minute, then carry her to the tray with the heat lamp for jaundice. And I swear that 20 foot walk carrying that absilutely see-through angel was the hardest walk of my life. The floor was covered in cables and I didn't think I could step over them.
I did and didn't drop her.
And she turned 10 today and I know I've made a million mistakes, yelled at her, been a jerk over the years. All mixed in with a lot of love, but so far from perfect as a dad it's scary. And I promised her a pretty good life and I don't know if I've given that.
But she's still my angel and she turned 10 at about 3:09 last night.
It still feels like just two weeks ago to me.
I love you, Madeleina. Thanks for being my kid.
Dad

Saturday, April 07, 2007

When You're 50 and Out of Work

When you're 50 or so and out of work it's a scary thing. It's not something you think will happen to you, and then, when it does, it's a very difficult thing to get out of.
When I was planning the move--though hastily, since it was for family reasons--from New York to Texas five years ago, I knew I'd be giving up my job as Senior Editor for High Times. But I thought I had a nice deal where I'd still be running the news on the web which was getting a lot of play then for HT. I had a great great stable of Drug War Journalists (Bill Weinberg, Steve Wishnia, Preston Peet, Silja Talvi, Chesley Hicks, Michael Simmons) producing material. So I thought I'd have that going while I reinvented myself as a freelancer. I also thought I'd be able to sell a column to some of the alternatives around the country--something called Drug War Follies--that would bring in regular money and could be written from anywhere. I even had an agent working at selling that for me. I figured those gigs would bring in a couple of thousand a month--enough to pay the mortgage and all bills anyway--so that I'd just have to come up with enough freelance work to buy food and keep my kids in clothes.
I didn't have much savings because that had all been spent on the downpayment on this beautiful $80 grand house and the actual move--a cross country drive in a U-Haul filled to the brim, accompanied by my son Italo and my friend Lynn--and the three thousand dollar pick up truck--a 1994 Ford Ranger, extended cab in bright blue-green--I bought when we got here.
I mean, there was no money for a riding mower so we just bought an electric pushs mower and did the acre and a half every couple of weeks that way. No money for a satellite tv thing so we settled for the two English and two Spanish channels we almost got with regular tv.
And we ate lots of roast chicken and rice or eggs and rice.
No big deal. I worked myself hard the first month, knowing I'd be selling that column and needing some pieces in the bank on that, so to speak. And I worked my fingers off on the High Times web.
Then I sent High Times the bill for the first month: $2200. They didn't respond. I called and was asked who had said I'd still be doing the web news work. I told them the new publisher had said to keep doing what I was doing and that meant the web. I was told that wasn't the case and that I should immediately stop doing what I was doing and "oh, by the way, we'll try to get you $700 on that first bill but forget anything more, okay? We're not paying."
That Stunk with a capital S.
I applied for unemployment and was turned down because I quit voluntarily.
Then the agent called: No interest in the column. Too depressing, even for the alternatives.
That stunk.
And then the story ideas I'd sent out to several magazine editors began coming back: "Not doing this type of story right now, Pete. Sorry." "That editor is no longer with us. Good luck." "Too expensive a concept."
And the jobs I did get weren't great or had bad endings. I sold a story to a men's mag and the editor got fired before it went to print. New editor was changing the format to exclude serious journalism. I sold a story to Parade Magazine about a Tree Swing in the Yard and that editor got fired. No pay.
Money was out. I borrowed from friends who didn't have it. I applied for straight jobs: the Walmart Distribution Center, the Alcon can factory, the Greenbay Packing Company, a sheetrock factory. Some days I applied to 10 places. None of them needed me. They needed men, they just didn't need 50-year-old guys from New York who were journalists and who were going to quit the moment they got a journalism gig.
So I began lying on the forms, claiming I'd been a factory worker my whole life. Barely finished high school.
No go. In those cases where I got to be interviewed, I lost the jobs when I didn't have the truck or heavy machinery licenses, or when they heard the New York accent and knew I hadn't really been working in sweatshops there.
I borrowed more money. I had the mortgage company starting to take the house six months after we moved in.
I caught a break and got a call from the National Inquirer to investigate a missing girl and was desperate enough to ask the editor to pay up front for a couple of weeks work: He had the money in my account in the morning and saved the house. I got three weeks work out of them at a grand a week, and then they paid me an extra grand by mistake and I was so broke I apologized to the heavens and kept the money. Stole it.
I sold my car's title to a loan company for two grand, knowing I'd have to pay back six grand on the loan by the time it was done.
I pawned my guitar and an old pocket watch from my grandpa for $95 bucks to buy food one weekend.
I went to work at the day labor center. Half the guys there--about 70 a day--were in the same boat as me: Factory or job shut down. Still raising kids. How to keep it all together. Some of the others were drunks or delelicts, a few were genuine hobos, some were running from child support and maybe 20 were illegal Mexicans. They always got the work. One guy explained it to me this way: "Man, if you're white or black, these guys figure you got a problem. You messed up or you're a fuck up. But the Mex kids, they're just hard working immigrants who are going to give the best damned work they got for the 5 bucks an hour they're paying."
In 31 days I got to water lawns three days at an apartment complex and earned a total of $161.50. But it put food on the table for a week.
My friend Lynn bailed me out the next time the bank started foreclosing.
And then a trip to Peru came together and I made a few bucks off that. And then the local alternative bought a cover story from me and then began assigning more. And then the tax-credit thing happened and suddenly when I did my taxes for 2003--where I earned 5 grand or something all told--the government gave me a check for 4 grand. I thought there was a mistake but they said no: that was like a one-time a year welfare check for poor people like me raising three kids on five grand a year.
And then Marc Emery at Cannabis Culture called and asked for a cover story, and then Skunk Magazine called and asked if I'd do a regular column for them. And then more trips to the Amazon with larger groups.
And this year, finally, with help from all the work and my guardian angels sending me little chunks of money from nowhere (an aunt we all loved died and left me several thousand; the government needs to widen the road in front of my house and paid a couple of grand for a sliver of my yard). And my little green truck with 270,000 miles still runs good. So suddenly, after four years, we got caught up and if I keep working hard and don't mess up or get cocky, maybe things will keep happening to keep paying the bills till the kids are all grown up.
What a feeling, though, when you can't pay them. Not for yourself. For the family. You feel like such a failure, so freaking impotent. Heck, if they don't even want you for day-fucking-labor crews holding 'slow' signs on the highway, what good are you?
And a friend of mine is now in the same boat. Microbiologist who has been working for a large midwestern city for all his life and two months ago his job disappears. At first he thought it was like a vacation: He had a few bucks saved; his house and car paid for, only one kid. But now it's two months and that money is getting gone fast. And his kid still needs to eat. And the government still wants their taxes on that house. He said he's been applying for factory and guard jobs. No luck. They can tell he's too educated to stay long. He told me yesterday he's begun lying on the resume, claiming he only finished high school. I know from experience that's not going to work for him either.
He's not a quitter and if he can hang on, someone is going to need his skills. But I don't envy him at the moment.
Being 50 and out of work is one scary time.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Types of Rain in Northwest Amazonia

It rains so much in northwest Amazonia that the people have names for the different types. My mother-in-law, Lydia Cahuaza, two generations out of the woods--she always explained she wasn't an Indian by saying 'My mother wore shoes, my grandmother wore shoes', not realizing that only Indigenous people used that phrase to prove they were city folk--had names for six types of rain. I can only remember four.
You have Tempesto, which is like a devil rain, which comes in sheets and is accompanied by crazy strong winds from all directions, tearing at the canopy and bringing down great tree-tops in the forest while it tears the rooves off homes in the city.
You have the Borracho, the Drunken Father rain, which is full of lightning and thunder and hard driving rain that comes and goes in just a few minutes. It's like a drunk dad who comes home and yells at the kids and crashes into things, knocking them over, but the kids pay him no mind because they know he'll fall asleep in just a minute or two.
You have the Lluvia Loca, the crazy girl rain, which starts, stops, starts again, stops again. It's like a love crazy teenaged girl who falls in love with one boy, and then quickly falls out of love with him and into love with another, and so on. She just can't make up her mind.
And then you have the Warmi Lluvia, the Bitchy Woman rain. That's a rain that falls lightly but falls all day and night, like a woman bitching at you, picking, picking, picking at you until she drives you crazy.
Ain't that cool.
I miss you Lydia.

Whether Curanderos Can Affect Weather

Someone recently asked whether curanderos in the Amazon could affect weather conditions. I don't know about making snow or melting ice and things like that, but I do know, having seen it countless times, that some of them certainly could/can affect rain clouds.
I think it's fairly standard among curanderos in the Amazon region that there is a connection with all things, clouds among them. In my experience, though, they don't generally call for rain, but prohibit rain from falling where they don't want it. Prohibit is too strong: They move the clouds out of the range of where they don't want it.
Anyone who ever traveled in a peque-peque with Julio with me will know that when storm clouds came up he'd blow them away because he really didn't like being on the river and being rained on. It didn't always work but it worked so often that it was much more than uncanny.
Still, Julio was nothing compared to Pablo, the Matses headman on the Rio Galvez. Pablo really didn't like his pueblo to get rained on. His primary wife, Ma-Shu spent time every day keeping every blade of grass out of the common area of the village and the rain would, of course, make it sprout again. So when Pablo was in the village and rains would come, he's take out his nu-nu and blow it to the four corners of the village: It never ceased to amaze me to watch the rain fall--often torrential rain-- on all sides of the village with none falling in the village itself.
Neither Pablo nor Julio thought this was a big deal and their basic lesson on doing it yourself (myself) was simply to make your arm or breath very very long and go up to the clouds and push them aside.
So if the initial question had to do with whether curanderos in Amazonia could affect weather, I think the answer is yes. Whether they could make rain as some of the Plain's indians could and can, I don't know. In Amazonia the point is generally to make it quit, not make it happen.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Something to Be Careful of...

So I was thinking: if people who spend too much time writing on the computer get carpel tunnel syndrome, then people who spend too much time watching porn probably get carnal tuggel syndrome, right?

Every Once in a While It's Just Perfect

Yesterday I felt like a lead weight was hanging from my neck. I got up at 5 AM, as per normal, and by 9 hadn't accomplished anything. I mean anything. Couldn't get myself to do the dishes from Friday night, couldn't handle the trash, the growing pile of clothes in front of the washing machine. By noon it was no better. There was a moment of motion in the early afternoon when I took my daughter Madeleina to a party, then continued on to buy food for the house and a couple of miniature Jim Beam's for me, but it didn't last long. Just felt slow, old and weak. Hated myself but couldn't break out. Had a few interviews to do for a story on the recent paraphernalia busts in the US and Canada but couldn't even get those done.
And what I did do was done with no joy, no life, no wonder.
And then there is today.
Whole different ball game.
Got up, made my coffee and began to wash, dry and fold two loads of laundry. While that was happening I scrubbed the dishes from last night's meal, cleaned the kitchen, fed the dogs, cat and goats, took a walk in the perfect sun out across the creek in our back yard. Listened to the cardinals that are waiting for their eggs to hatch, put some bird food in the feeders, then came in and made breakfast for Madeleina, her sleep-over friend Shelby and my son Italo: Fresh strawberry, banana, orange juice mix with just a touch of milk; some bacon and scrambled eggs, toasted bagels with no-fat cream cheese (you got to draw the line somewhere, eh?). Read three newspapers on the net, Bill Weinberg's fantastic account of the life and death of Tom Forcade (www.ww4report.com), fixed the drain in the bathroom sink, picked up in the living room and did all of it with absolute and sweet joy.
And it's still not noon.
Man, I love days that start this way. I need them. I feel like me today, a pumped up dad who handles his responsibilities effortlessly, without griping.
So what happened yesterday?
Who knows.
But I'm gonna tell you, I'm glad it's today today.
Maybe it's just cause it's April and I get to go to the Amazon in two weeks for a couple of weeks. Get back down to the thick thick green. A day like today I wish I was going for a major expedition, setting off into that river system on my boat, all loaded up with a month worth of supplies, headed off to start a new adventure.
Won't happen this trip. But today, it sure feels like it could.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Podcast of Shamanism Primer

Don't know if this is done on blogs, so if I'm off base, clue me. I guest-blogged on nprophet.com a couple of weeks ago. Actually, he ran the A Primer on Shamanism in Northeast Amazonia piece and it got a lot of hits there. And then he wrote me a few days ago to say someone did a podcast of it, reading some of it and discussing some of it. The part involving A Primer... begins 20 minutes into it but the whole show is pretty good.
The link is http://mysteriousuniverse.org/?p=620, the guy who read from the story and discussed it did it so well that it was a thrill to hear it. Ego, I know, but it was a kick and a half anyway.
So check it out.

An Interview with Richard Schultes, Circa 1996

I've been trying to collect and clean up a number of stories for the petergormanarchives.com and recently got to the "Interviews" section. I don't think this one has gotten up yet--and there's some words from Allen Ginsberg, Ken Kesey, Tim Leary that havn't made it up yet either (can't find the darned things; they must be buried in one of the old computers)--but I think it's a pretty interesting read.
Bear in mind that this was done in late 1995 or early 1996, and that the great Richard Schultes died on April 10, 2001. I have not changed the verb tenses to reflect that; I'm putting it here as I edited it from the tapes we made then.


RICHARD SCHULTES:
ETHNOBOTANIST AND PSYCHEDELIC PIONEER

by Peter Gorman

Often called the Father of modern ethnobotany, botanist, explorer and author Richard Schultes is the Director Emeritus of Harvard’s famed Botanical Museum. Beginning in 1940, Dr. Schultes spent a total of 17 years in the Amazon, mostly in the remote regions of Colombia where he investigated and collected the medicinal, edible and toxic plants used by the Kofan, Witoto and other indigenous groups. He is the recipient of dozens of awards for his pioneering botanical work, among them the Cross of Boyaca—Colombia’s highest honor—and The Gold Medal of the World Wildlife Fund, presented by Britian’s Prince Philip. Additionally, he has authored and co-authored numerous books—including two written with LSD synthesizer Dr. Albert Hofmann—among them Plants of the Gods—Origins of Hallucinogenic Use (Schultes and Hofmann; 1979, McGraw-Hill, NY) and The Healing Forest: Medicinal and Toxic Plants of Northwest Amazonia (Schultes and Raffauf; 1990, Dioscorides Press; Portland, OR).
Now 80 years old, Dr. Schultes, the father of three grown children, continues to work at the Botanical Museum two days a week, is concentrating on finishing several book projects, and is hoping to make one more trip to his beloved Colombian Amazon.

HIGH TIMES: Let’s start with how you came to be an ethnobotanist?
RICHARD SCHULTES: Well, I’m from an old New England family, and when I was growing up one of my uncles had a farm up in what was then a small town, Townsend, Massachusetts. I spent the summers up there, helping in the haying, and I began to collect plants. I don’t know where I learned that you pressed them, but I pressed them in big encyclopedias. Then I began to learn what the vernacular names of the plants were and as I got older I learned that they had Latin names—which didn’t mean much to me until I studied Latin. So I always had an interest in plants.

HT: What did you study in school?
RS: Well, I did my undergraduate thesis on peyote. I went out to Oklahoma with an anthropologist, Weston LaBarre—who was then a graduate student at Yale and later became famous writing several books on peyote—and attended four or five all night ceremonies and tried peyote with the Indians. We spent time with three or four different tribes, mainly Kiowa. Anyway, I collected some peyotes and brought them back and did a little chemical work on it.

HT: Were you the first to do chemistry on the peyote cactus?
RS: No. But I’d had several courses in organic chemistry and I just became interested in it. I’m ashamed of it now because it’s very complicated and I was just a beginner at chemistry.
But in writing my thesis I became interested in a misconception that had taken hold in relation to peyote and the sacred plant of the Aztecs, Teonanacatl. William Safford, an ethnobotanist—I think he was with the Smithsonian—had said in 1916 that the Aztec’s Teonanacatl must have been peyote. Which did not fit in with my knowledge of botany because peyote is a cactus and cacti do not grow in high wet forests, while Teonanacatl was undoubtedly a fungus, a mushroom which doesn’t grow in deserts. And so I went to Mexico hoping I’d be able to see this plant, Teonanacatl, and I ended up doing my thesis on the useful of plants of the Mazatec Indians.

HT: Did you ever find Teonanacatl?
RS: Yes. I was able to bring back one identifiable species of this mushroom they were using, Panaeolis sphinctrinus, and in 1941 I published a paper in the Harvard Botanical Museum Leaflets identifying that one species as Teonanacatl. Of course, thanks primarily to the work of Gordon Wasson and the Mexican mycologist Gaston Guzman, we have since learned there are about twenty-four species used by the Shamans of Oaxaca.

HT: Did you get to do the magic mushroom with the Mazatec’s?
RS: No. I hadn’t tried it. I only had a couple of specimens.
But I fell in love with Oaxaca and thought I’d probably work all my life there on the flora.

HT: What changed your mind about continuing to work in Mexico?
RS: Well, after I’d gotten my PhD, I had two jobs offered to me: biology master in a private school in New England and a grant from the National Academy of Sciences to go to the Amazon to find out what plants the natives used in making their curare .

HT: Why was the National Academy of Sciences interested in curare?
RS: Because in late 1930s, scientists had isolated a chemical from one of the plants used to make curare called tubocurine, which was just becoming very important in medicine. It’s a muscle relaxant that’s now used in any good hospital before deep surgery. Now the Indians make many different kinds of arrow poisons so the Academy wanted to know as much as possible about the different plants they used. So that was the job I took. I took a plane down to Bogota in 1940 and worked out in the field on that project.

HT: How did you first go into the jungle?
RS: I first went in with Indians who lived along the base of the Andes mountains in Colombia, some of whom spoke Spanish. So I had an entree. And as I went farther inland I got Spanish speaking Indian boys who spoke the language of one or two of the tribes and that way I got in among them.
But they certainly knew I was there before I did, because the grapevine from one tribe to another is much more efficient than Western Union. So even some of the people who hadn’t had any contact with outsiders knew I was in the area and what I was doing.
I spent a lot of time with the Witotos. I did quite a bit of work with them and also with the Kofan, both of whom make a number of arrow poisons from different plants.
Later when I heard about the outbreak of World War ll I thought I would be conscripted, so I made my way back to Bogota and went to the US Embassy there. But instead of conscripting me they told me to go back into the jungle and try to stimulate the production of rubber. This Bostonian who’d never cut a rubber tree, but I’d been with the Indians nine months at that time so they assumed I had learned all about that.

HT: And how did you do?
RS: Well, I gathered a lot of material from species that had been known from the last century, and I also discovered one new species of dwarf rubber tree. It’s an endemic species, only found on one mountain in the Amazon, a mountain that has many unique plants on it. It’s recently been made a protected biological area. This is the mountain that’s been named for me.

HT: I didn’t know there was a mountain that had been named for you. What’s it called?
RS: Mesa Schultes. Mesa means table. So it’s Shultes’ Table. Before that I had a cockroach I collected in the Amazon named for me, and I thought that was a great honor. Its the genus called Shultesia. But I’ve come up from cockroaches to mountains.

HT: There are a number of plants with your name as well, aren’t there?
RS: Oh, yes, about two hundred and ten species. Plants are frequently named for the collector. A number of my plants are also named for the Indians who use them. That’s also very common among botanists, to use geographical or tribal names.

HT: What’s the process of collecting a plant?
RS: The first thing you do is take a cutting of the plant and press it between sheets of newspaper in a plant press so that you can identify it later. Fruits and flowers are very helpful here, we always try to get them. Without this, what we call the herbarium specimen, you have nothing.
The second thing you do, if you want to later analyze the plant’s chemicals, is to take a wide mouthed plastic jug and put some 70 percent ethyl alcohol into it and then cut the plant in half-inch pieces and put the pieces into the alcohol. The alcohol—provided you use ethyl, and not methyl or booze—will not change the chemical composition of the substances. If they are leached out, they will be in the alcohol which the chemist will have. Actually it’s much more easily worked with that way than if the chemicals are in the actual plant material. That’s the only way to collect.

HT: And how did the Indians feel about your collecting their plants?
RS: The Indians are wonderful natural collaborators, because they are so interested and knowledgeable about their flora. Everyone was always interested in why I wanted this plant or that plant. The fact was, I wanted it because they used it. If they asked me why I wanted something, I made up a disease we use it for—I’ve invented more diseases than we ever had, so they think we’re a good deal more decrepit than we actually are. And then they’d often say "You can’t use that plant for that. That plant is for treating earaches," or something like that. That’s how I’d find out how they used it, you see?

HT: How many medicines have been made from the plants that you’ve taken?
RS: Very few. There’s one that’s called yoco which has a very high content of caffeine which is now used to reduce obesity. I also have a couple of things in Sweden that are being looked at, and several that the American company Shaman Pharmaceuticals are looking into. But American companies, until recently, have looked down their noses at plants chemistry. They have no interest in it.
I’m glad some of them are starting to take notice because when you consider that the Amazon has 80,000 species of higher plants—and Indonesia, Southeast Asia, or Africa have at least that many as well—well, this is a tremendous chemical storehouse.

HT: Did you ever need an indigenous medicinal remedy?
RS: No. I really never got sick in the Amazon except for malaria and I always had chloroquin for that. It was always the first thing I put in my briefcase.
It’s generally very healthy there. There’s tuberculosis and leprosy, which is very common, but that can be controlled if you have soap with you.

HT: There’s an African shrub called Iboga plant, which is used, among other things, to stop people from obsessive behavior. It’s currently being looked into by the National Institute of Drug Abuse as an addiction interrupter. I’ve heard stories that ayahuasca is sometimes used similarly to treat alcoholism. Have you heard that as well?
RS: No, I haven’t, but I’m convinced that some of these so-called drugs will have side effects that can be used in certain diseases or conditions. For example, one of the big problems that exist among American Indian tribes is that so many of the young people become alcoholics. Many of these people stop drinking when they go to these peyote ceremonies, and I’m sure its not only religious teachings in the ceremonies, but the weekly taking of peyote that’s helping them as well.
But most of these things have not been properly looked at by medically oriented people. Some of the chemicals in them have not been investigated at all. And chemists take the chemicals that we get out of these compounds and change them to make semi-synthetic compounds. The possibility of making something that may have a special effect is enormous. That’s what i think when I see these forests burning up or being cut down in Brazil. It’s a crime against humanity.
One of the best Brazilian botonists has written that he calculates less than one percent of the Amazonian flora of Brazil has been even superficially looked at by chemists. And so imagine what we are destroying in the Amazon alone! Thousands of species that we’ll never be able to analyze and many of them we don’t yet even have botanical names for.

HT: What can be done to save this knowledge of the people’s whose native regions we’re so quickly destroying?
RS: Civilization, our culture, is advancing with every road, every airport, every commercial company after wood. And with missionaries, tourists and others who are coming into contact with primitive peoples and, while not purposely maybe, certainly destroying their cultures.
This is one of the things I’ve argued for: ethnological conservation. We’ve got to preserve the knowledge of these peoples. For example, one of my former students and best field men, Dr. Michael Ballick, is taking as much time as he can from his job at the Botanical Gardens in New York to work in Belize where there are three or four old medicine men; if they die all the knowledge of what they’re using is gone. He has a woman there who speaks their language who works with these medicine men and he goes down three or four times a year and she gives him the notes. It’s a wonderful thing. All that will be saved.

HT: Once we’ve saved their knowledge, how do we make sure that the indigenous people from whom it comes get their fair share?
RS: There’s a lot of discussion about that and many drug companies have agreed to see that some help, whether its financial or some other way, gets back to the tribe. Where I worked, money would be useless, absolutely useless. They don’t need money. It would have been much better for me if they had since I had to pay them in things and had to carry all the stuff down into the jungle. But in many other places where they can use money, money can be given to the tribe or some representative of the tribe.
In the case of Shaman Pharmaceuticals, they have set up a special sub-branch of environmental conservation, The Healing Forest Conservancy. And they’ve agreed that if they make any money from any of the things they get from the Indians, that they will give back to the group in some way or another. Either by sending a doctor there, or sending money if they can use it, or sending a bright young boy out and giving him a year or two in school somewhere. There are many ways of doing this.

HT: And how do we save the environments of these peoples?
RS: This is another thing I argue for: botanical and environmental conservation. In many places, especially in Brazil, commercial interests are bringing in all sorts of mechanical material and cutting not only the trees they want, but taking down every twig. The pictures that you see from Brazil are horrendous. I’ve seen them cutting everything down and letting it dry and then setting it afire, and then, of course, nothing else grows. What we’ll have is a great extension larger than the United States, of desert scrub, small plants and trees. You’ll never get the forest taking over.

HT: Is the same true in Colombia?
RS: No. Thanks to the lack of much white penetration and thanks to the rapids and the rivers which make navigation with boats impossible on all but the Putumayo River, the destruction is only by Indians with axes. They cut enough to get their food, period. They don’t take down a thousand acres at a time.
They work those clearings for five or eight years until the land doesn’t give any more crops, and then they move. And in those small areas the jungle takes back over. Which it doesn’t when you cut large areas.

HT: Isn’t a large part of the problem the population explosion, particularly in the Third World?
RS: I have long thought that the number one crisis facing the world is population. For every child born it means a few inches less soil for food. And the way we’re destroying the forests and agricultural land, we no longer have the luxury to procreate the way we have. You have to make people aware, particularly in a place like Colombia, that after two or three children they have to stop.
Now the Colombian government was doing this with medical advice, and then the Pope comes in there, the first stop of any Pope in the New World—and Colombia is a very Catholic country—and he berates the government for this. He should stay over in Rome and leave governments alone. But he said this was a terrible thing to do and most of the ordinary Columbian people, being so strongly Catholic, believed him. Fortunately the government didn’t. They’re still doing it.

HT: Let me ask about your vision plant experiences. Tell me about using ayahuasca and virola snuffs with the indigenous people. You must have had some extraoradinary experiences...
RS: I wouldn’t call them extrordinary. With virola snuff you don’t usually have same effects that you get with ayahuasca. I have taken peyote in ceremonies with the Indians, and ayahuasca, and with both of these I get color reactions. But I never had visions and I don’t see things, although I know that many people do. With peyote, for example, or mescaline, many people see things from our culture. And the Indians, with ayahuasca, see huge snakes and jaguars and in some cases, if they have been indoctrinated to think they can, they see other-world spirits, or the spirits of their anscestors. But I have never seen anything except color. If you remember Walt Disney’s Fantasia, the first thing is a color interpretation of Bach’s Tocata and Fugue. That’s the closest I can tell you of my experience with peyote and with ayahuasca. I see vague things like clouds or smoke of different colors going across my field of vision, but I’ve never seen anything concrete. I think this is mostly a psychological difference; that these people expect to see those things. As a scientist, I don’t expect to see them.

HT: You’ve had a long relationship with Dr. Albert Hofmann. How did you two meet?
RS: I met him in a conference in Berlin. I knew that he was interested in the work of Mr. Wasson on the intoxicating mushrooms. That was when Wasson was just beginning that work. So I said I’d been in the Oaxaca area and knew a little about them. And that struck up a friendship. We boycotted a lot of lectures and just sat and talked. And after that we wrote two books together. We’re great friends.

HT: Did you ever do Hofmann’s LSD?
RS: No. I always told him I didn’t want to because it wasn’t a natural thing, it was a synthetic. And because of that I had no interest in it.

HT: What about Gordon Wasson, the mycologist?
RS: Well, I went to the Amazon right after Mexico and I hadn’t been home for two years during the war—I was getting rubber out—and when I finally got home this banker called up from New York and said "I know of your paper in which you identified one species of mushroom as Teonanacatl. I’m going to go down there because this is very interesting to me. Can you give me some names?"
Well, I didn’t know anything about Wasson, and I told him it had been several years since I was last in Mexico but gave him the name of a doctor, Dr. Reko, who worked in Oaxaca and who’d been interested in these mushrooms too. So Wasson went down to Mexico and got in touch with this doctor who set him up with names of people to see.

HT: Wasson and yourself later became good friends, didn’t you?
RS: We became very close friends. He even had an honorary appointment in the Harvard Botanical Museum, because even though as far as science goes he was an amateur—in the best sense of the word, a lover of knowledge—he was doing research that no one else had done. And publishing it. He published I think six or seven books in the 22 years he had an honorary appointment.

HT: Did you ever get to use the mushrooms?
RS: No. Because I never went back to Mexico. I would have had I been with Wasson on one of his trips, as Albert Hofmann was.

HT: Is there any truth to the stories that Wasson kept them around for his guests....
RS: I don’t think that’s true. He gave most of his specimens to the museum here. You can see them in our lecture hall in bottles.

HT: What about datura? Is that something you’ve used?
RS: There are six species in the Andes of South America, and a number of the Indians do use it, alone or with other hallucinogens. But I would never take a solanaceous plant.

PG: Why not?
RS: The scopolomine and atropine which they contain are very very toxic alkaloids. And not only that, the concentration of these alkaloids in a single plant can vary from one season to the next and very often from one day to the next. In any event it’s too dangerous to fool with. I wouldn’t do it.

HT: What are your feelings about drug use in our society?
RS: I am concerned with the excessive use of drugs like marijuana and cocaine, but I don’t know what you can do about it, especially cocaine. Coca, you know, is harmless when used by the Indians, who chew the leaves of the coca bush. But that’s quite different than processed cocaine. I’m sorry about what Colombia is going through now, with their drug problems. But who’s responsible? We are. If we didn’t buy the cocaine or Europe...well now Japan is buying it. They’re having a terrible problem there.

HT: I’m not a fan of cocaine either. Marijuana, you and I might disagree on...
RS: I don’t necessarily disagree with you on that, except I think it’s got to be controlled in a motorized civilization. The effects of marijuana differ with different people and at different times with the same person. But there are two things it always does, and in the beginning when you don’t feel too woozy you don’t recognize them: It distorts the sense of time and of space, both of which you absolutely need when you’re driving.
But I do think they should decriminalize it. I have been to court many times to testify for these young kids who were caught sharing a marijuana cigarette with a friend and they want to put them in jail and make a real criminal out of them. What a travesty of justice.

PG: You’ve joked about being the guru for the psychedelic generation. Did you and Wasson and Hofmann ever sit around and laugh about being the trinity of psychedelia?
RS: Well, yes. We were all in a meeting some years ago which Jonathan Ott put on in San Francisco, and he had all sorts of experts on hallucinogenic plants there. The peyote man, Weston LaBarre was there, and Albert Hofmann and myself and Wasson and many other people. And we naturally thought it was funny, all of us there in our suits and ties, not looking like gurus at all. Well, I’m not a guru and never thought about myself that way.
I used to lecture down there in California during the hippie days, and I think many people were disappointed when they saw me. They thought I would look like Allen Ginsberg or something.

HT: Despite your conservative appearance you really did usher in the psychedelic revolution, the three of you. Shultes, Hofmann, and Wasson...
RS: I don’t think I did, but altogether I suppose you could say we did. Actually, I think Mr. Leary did more than any one of us in ushering in that.

HT: Do you regret your part in bringing the idea of vision drugs to the Western world?
RS: No. I don’t. Not at all. I never have.